April 4, 2012
I finished up a pair of socks for me today. I probably should have been working on my mom’s present for mother’s day, but eh. These seemed more important.
These socks were firsts in a few ways: new yarn and new construction method. They’re toe-up instead of my usual cuff-down construction, which will remain my preferred way to knit socks. I don’t like the way the toe fits, and found it difficult to gauge how long to make them before starting the heel. I’m eager to see how the yarn holds up. It’s Knit Picks Felici in the Time Traveler colorway (of course). I’ve been very pleased with how my other KP stroll socks have worn, so hopefully it’ll be two for two.
The rest of this post really could just be Dr. Who memes… I haven’t kept up with the new series very much past when Amy was pregnant (or is she? dun dun dun) or possibly in love with the Doctor (or is she? dun dun dun (also he is clearly the superior choice to Rory, who is just so bland)), but Matt Smith seemed like a fine Doctor. Also we don’t get the regular BBC at my house, and I am too lazy to sign up for Netflix, which I am led to believe has Dr. Who available for instant playing or something.
March 29, 2012
So I didn’t get into the opera internship program. This isn’t why I haven’t updated in a while, because I just found out yesterday/early this morning (although I suspected this was the case for the past few weeks). The truth is I am pretty bad at blogging on any sort of regular schedule. Blogging on days off only really worked for me when those days were spread out. Six and seven day stretches of non-stop retail bullshit really put a damper on my willingness to go home and tell internet strangers about my life. “Today I got yelled at and called a liar for enforcing the completely reasonable policies of my workplace, and bagged so many goddamn coffeemakers and Snuggies that my shoulder is still all out of order. Also I hate people.”
I am more than a little sad at this turn of events. I’d hoped to get in way more than I let anyone know, and now that I haven’t I am seriously floundering. What the hell am I going to do now? It was entirely stupid to put so much faith in such a long shot. But I did, and now I’m stuck.
Retail sucks the life out of me. Just absolutely drains me and makes me long for a ten-car pile up on the way there so I won’t have to deal with it. And now I worry that it will actually happen, because I mentioned it to more than my brain. (I am occasionally and all-consumingly superstitious about things like this.) I want a way out, and quitting is not a viable option right now for so many reasons, most of which are Money, but can’t find one anywhere.
I don’t know what to do, and it is terrifying.
February 25, 2012
I’m stuck in a kind of rut lately. Waiting (eagerly!) for any word from the Opera people has put me into a kind of suspended animation, if that makes sense. There’s a sort of transience about everything I’ve been doing lately, and a kind of distance. Yes, I still knit on my lunch breaks and after work, and I’m stewing over that fanfic I mentioned last post, but it all seems very disconnected and like I’m watching it happen from the outside. It’s like I am doing all these things and waiting for my Real Life to start, whatever that might mean.
To combat this, I’ve been trying very hard to finish a lot of my projects so that I can start new, exciting ones when it’s spring. (Which is another thing, the weather here has been ridiculous. It has hit 60 a few times this month and last, but today it is super windy and there are big dark clouds on the horizon that are possibly snow. Grump.) Mostly this finishing-spree has included socks, but I found a scarf that I’ve been “working on” since July, if my Rav page is to be believed. So that is getting done, and I’m looking forward to making this top when my supplies arrive. Broke the “no new yarn” rule for it and everything.
Maybe I can pull myself out of the slump by finding and making things I really desperately want to work on? That is what I’m hoping for.
February 19, 2012
Back in January, I applied for an apprenticeship position with the Santa Fe Opera. I’ve known about their summer program for at least a year, as my boss at UT was the one to tell me about it, but it was too late to apply for last summer by the time I’d discussed it with her. So then it was senior year and All Thesis All The Time, and I kind of forgot about the program until this past winter. Retail during the holidays was soul-sucking and horrible in so very many ways that I knew I needed to get out. The applications were available in December, and I had all my things sent out by the first week of January.
This is all a long way of saying that my radio silence was mostly due to a long weekend trip to Madison, WI. It was the closest place Santa Fe was doing interviews that gave me enough time to request off work. (New York was closer geographically, but their dates were too soon to put in a request.) It was a very enriching experience, and even if I don’t end up making the cut for the program, I will still be glad to have gone.
Apart from that, I have been knitting a bit and have gotten back into writing. Mostly it is shitty Harry Potter fanfic, but there is something deliciously rebellious about sitting and scribbling Weasley smut on my lunch break at work.
January 29, 2012
It has been a very blah kind of week here. Work kicks my butt every day, even when there are like ten customers over the course of an eight hour shift, and I come home ready to sleep for nine days. It’s left me useless for anything other than surfing Rav and sort of halfassedly knitting dishcloths.
Right now I have some major socklust, in that I would like a new pair of hand knit socks, but I don’t have a pair on the needles that are anywhere near done. In fact, the pair I was most excited about ended up taking a turn for the worst. Turns out when the pattern says “this stitch pattern does not have a lot of stretch, please size accordingly” that is exactly what it means. So while it fits my foot just fine, it will barely go over my heel. And my other sock pattern is too boring to mention, although I have made some progress in the past week. It’s a good traveling/lunch break project, but not anything I am bursting with excitement to work on when I get home.
Technically I’m not breaking my “no new projects until one is finished” rule, because I am 90% sure I have to frog those socks. And anyway, it’s not like I’m actually knitting anything else right now. All the projects were too boring, but now there is light!
January 22, 2012
Yesterday, I called off work because it snowed and I couldn’t make it off my street, let alone a half an hour away to the mall. Snow utterly defeats me in a way that very few things do. Usually I can power through things, or else be two seconds away from breaking apart completely but somehow manage to white-knuckle it to victory. But not with snow. It happens, and I morph into a useless lump of nervous almost-barfing and leg twitches. This is the worst superpower, to be sure. It doesn’t help that the tires on my car are about 80% bald, and thus about as useful as a barrel of radioactive monkeys when it comes to traction and steering in winter slush.
So, since I was stuck at home all of yesterday and feeling pretty crappy about it (let me tell you about my ridiculous actual-job work ethic), I decided to spend the day doing something useful. Decided is actually not the right word. It is more like I remembered I wanted to knit some dishcloths and retroactively declared them penance for missing work.
I’ve made these three so far, and am currently working on another spirally scrubbie. They are too much fun. I am hoping they will hold up well enough to use in the shower, and not just for dishes, since my shower puff is coming apart. It is the second one that’s done that, and it annoys me. I don’t think I bathe particularly vigorously, so why is this puff, which is designed specifically to scrub dirt off skin, coming apart after less than a year of doing just that? Arg.
Other than that things have been pretty chill around here.
January 18, 2012
Things that are objectively awesome:
1. these hand warmers, finished a few days ago
2. this dress, finished this morning
3. this diploma, that arrived yesterday